A Rose By Any Other Name…

I swear, I saw him burying something at the base of that bush.

He said it was fertilizer, but it’s November, and my fingers are numb from digging. The roses are thorny and black, their perfume thick and sickening in the cold air, even now. “What are you doing?” I asked him, but he didn’t answer. Just kept humming that stupid tuneless song.

Maybe I’m losing it. Dad just died, Mom’s in assisted living, and now this weird rose obsession? I tried calling Sarah, but she didn’t pick up. I need to tell someone about the way he looked — sweaty, desperate — when he knelt by those bushes this afternoon, dirt smudged across his cheek.

Now the dog won’t stop barking, lunging at the window, hackles raised, and the porch light flickers, casting long, distorted shadows across the lawn.

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The dog is going frantic now, throwing himself at the back door, claws scraping wood. His barks aren’t the usual “squirrel!” or “mailman!” barks; they’re deep, guttural, terrified. I get up, heart pounding, and walk towards the window. The shadows outside *are* dancing, but it’s just the wind catching the branches and the faulty porch light. Isn’t it?

He comes into the living room, wiping his hands on a rag, looking tired. “What’s with him?” he asks, nodding towards the dog.
“He won’t stop barking at the roses,” I say, my voice tight. “Ever since you were out there.”
He shrugs, avoids my gaze. “Probably just the cold. Or maybe he dug up a mole or something earlier.”
A mole? My stomach clenches. “He’s never acted like this. He’s terrified.”
“He’s a dog,” he says, too casually. “They get weird.”

He tries to change the subject, asks if I want tea. But the air feels thick, and the dog’s desperate yelps are a constant, shrill accusation. I watch him, trying to see the man I married, not the stranger with dirt on his face burying secrets in the garden. My mind keeps replaying the image: the shovel, the hole, his hunched back. What fertilizer needs a hole that deep?

Later, when he’s finally asleep, snoring lightly, the dog whimpers by the door. I can’t stand it anymore. I pull on boots and a coat, grab a flashlight. The cold hits me like a physical blow as I step onto the porch. The rose bushes stand like dark, spiky sentinels under the flickering light. The sickeningly sweet perfume is still there, faint but persistent, even in the freezing air. The ground near the base is disturbed, a patch of darker earth against the frozen mud.

Taking a shaky breath, I kneel down, ignoring the thorns that snag my sleeve. My fingers are numb again, but I start digging in the soft, freshly turned soil. It gives easily at first, then my fingers brush against something wrapped in cloth. It’s small, maybe the size of my fist. My blood runs cold. This isn’t fertilizer.

I pull it out, my hands trembling, and hold it up to the weak beam of the flashlight. It’s a small, faded handkerchief, tied into a bundle. Carefully, I untie the knot with frozen fingers. Inside, nestled against the worn fabric, is a tiny, stiff bird. Its bright yellow feathers are ruffled, its eyes closed. It looks peaceful, almost asleep.

Tears well up instantly, blurring my vision. It was Pip, Dad’s old canary. He must have died today, while I was lost in my own grief, arranging Mom’s next doctor’s appointment. He knew how much I loved that bird, how it was one of the last connections to Dad’s quiet routines. He didn’t tell me. He just buried him here, under the roses Dad admired every summer, trying to spare me another wave of sadness. The “fertilizer” was a panicked lie, the humming likely sorrow, the desperation not sinister, but overwhelmed grief and a misguided attempt at protection.

I sit back on my heels, clutching the tiny bundle. The dog, still by the door, lets out a soft, low whine instead of a bark. The scary shadows look like just shadows now. The roses are still black and thorny, the air cold, but the sickness in the perfume feels less like decay and more like the heavy, complicated weight of loss and unspoken love. He wasn’t burying something awful; he was burying a piece of our shared past, alone, because he didn’t know how else to carry it, or how to tell me it was gone when I was already breaking.